When you begin the journey to “I am worthy”, you will find yourself in a situation where your worthiness is tested. Whether it’s tested in a relationship, through your employment, or even within your own views of yourself; there will come a time where you will face the truth or untruths of your worthiness.
“If my aim is to prove I am “enough” the project goes on to infinity-because the battle was already lost on the day I conceded the issue was debatable. “
– Dr. Nathaniel Branden
Unworthiness plaques so many us, and what matters is that we are afraid to take the risk to let others see us as we are. We harbor pernicious beliefs that bombard us with insults that we would never say to someone else. Call it low self-esteem, shame, or the inner critic- what ever its name, we secretly feel that we are on some level, unworthy. What is the result? We feel disconnected, alienated, separate, and alone.
We live our lives in the proverbial closet believing that if we let ourselves be seen, we would be summarily rejected. We then close ourselves off from love and validate the “negatives” about ourselves; becoming numb from these painful feelings of unworthiness by over eating and drinking, overspending, and staying insanely busy.
Solange’s hit song “Cranes in the Sky” nailed these sentiments beautifully.:
I tried to drink it away
I tried to put one in the air
I tried to dance it away
I tried to change it with my hair
I ran my credit card up
Thought a new dress make it better
I tried to work it away
But that just made me even sadder
I tried to keep myself busy
I ran around circles
Think I made myself dizzy
I slept it away, I sexed it away
I read it awayAway, away, away, away, away, away
Away, away, away, away, away
Groveling in old pain and hurts opens the door for you to excuse yourself from showing up in your own life. We accept victimhood and hide, play small, live less than what we know we are capable of, trapping us in the mental prison that we patrol and marshal.
Worthiness is YOUR Birthright!
This is the time where you are called to release from old bridges and ties that connect you to the lowest part of you. What is keeping you connected to the old lies and beliefs that are keeping you restrained and restricted from fully walking in you birthright of worthiness? What are the words or ideas that you re-play to yourself that “validates” unworthiness?
Is it a relationship, a mindset, physical clutter or could it be holding to unforgiveness?
As summer is gearing down to close, we will be preparing ourselves for Fall harvest. What will you reap this season? Our tears have watered the garden of the seeds our faith planted and it will be time for harvest.
Are you ready to take the leap and say to yourself, “Never again, now I see my worth!”
Burn that bridge of unworthiness and trade those ashes for beauty. You deserve all the love, all the opportunities, and all the accomplishments! But you must first take the step. The trip will take as long as it needs to take; do not rush the process in your healing and revitalization.
Do not resist the opportunity for transformation, freedom, desire. Be intentional with your steps to worthiness. And know that how we choose to love, endure, and engage in the process will dictate the outcome and the coming of the promise that we carry within our soul.
As long as you endure and engage in the process, you will get to your destination. Success is on you.
“When we burn the bridges behind us that unworthiness built, we light a radiant path to the bridge of greatness ahead of us and within”
–Still Worthy by Shannon Evette
Peace and Love on this journey,